I GOT A JOB AND DECIDED TO QUIT ON MY FIRST DAY

I don’t know how I feel. I don’t know whether to laugh or to cry. All I know is that I don’t have it all figured out. I’m a young girl trying to make the best out of my life. Living my life with so much pressure and expectations. I feel my life is a mess and each time I try to figure it out, it keeps on getting complicated.

I got a job... a job that I saw as a big win for me because I really wanted it at that point. I wanted the job not because of the pay but because I wanted to learn some skills I’ll need in the next six months or probably one year. I was really excited about it at the same I wasn’t too sure about it. I decided I wasn’t going to continue after the first day. This was supposed to be a big win for me but I ended up messing everything up. The rules weren’t too favorable and I just feel it won’t end well🙃. I don’t even know what to say to myself. I could decide to shout at myself, cry my eyes out but I just felt this peace within me. Korty was probably right, sometimes you have to give up some offers just to chase your dreams. Taking that job, I might probably loose focus and go into an entirely different direction, different from the actual plan. Sometimes, when I take the wrong move, I ask myself “Gloria are you okay” but this time I said to myself, “ Gloria, I’m proud of you”

Maybe I was too hard on myself, maybe I was taking things too far, maybe I wasn’t living my age 🚶🏿‍♂️💔

All I need now is peace of mind and maybe start over and retrace my steps.

When life knocks you know, instead of getting up... sometimes just lie there and take a nap, later you move😂💔.

Life knocking you down is like life trying to give you the red light on the traffic light. 🚦and the you taking a nap means, you’re trying to figure out what went wrong and how you can address the issue and retrace your steps, that’s the yellow light and once you’ve been able to figure it out, it gives you a go-ahead which is the green light.

The question is ”What’s next?”.... I honestly don‘t know what’s next. I just need time to reflect on everything and retrace my steps.

At this point I need a therapist 💔 🚶🏿‍

gℓσωяια ιѕ α qυєєи 🖤